Moonlight and Ashes
Moonlight and Ashes
Rosie Goodwin
Headline Publishing Group Ltd (2010)
Tags: WWII, Historical Fiction
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Synopsis
Despite being trapped in an abusive marriage, Maggie still feels blessed with her eight-year-old twins, Danny and Lizzie, and baby girl, Lucy. But when the Second World War begins it seems that herblessings may have run out. Although the war lets her escape her husband when he's sent to the front, she must also lose the twins, as they're evacuated to North Wales. Lizzie seems to be in the perfect family, while Danny is left with a man who seems to resent his presence. But appearances can be deceptive, and while Maggie struggles to survive the bombings at home, her children face danger of a different kind.
Moonlight and Ashes
ROSIE GOODWIN
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Copyright © 2006 Rosemarie Yates
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Table of Contents
Title Page
Copyright Page
Dedication
Acknowledgements
Part One
Prologue
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Part Two
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Chapter Twenty-Six
Chapter Twenty-Seven
Part Three
Chapter Twenty-Eight
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Chapter Thirty
Chapter Thirty-One
Chapter Thirty-Two
Chapter Thirty-Three
Chapter Thirty-Four
Chapter Thirty-Five
Chapter Thirty-Six
Chapter Thirty-Seven
Chapter Thirty-Eight
Chapter Thirty-Nine
Epilogue
Rosie Goodwin has worked in social services for many years. She has children, and lives in Nuneaton with her husband, Trevor, and their four dogs.
Praise for Rosie Goodwin’s previous novels:
‘Goodwin is a fabulous writer and surely has a bright future. She reels the reader in surprisingly quickly and her style involves lots of twists and turns that are in no way predictable’
Worcester Evening News
A good tear-jerker . . . compelling’ Reading Evening Post
‘Goodwin is a born author’ Lancashire Evening Telegraph
‘A lovely story of two women finding their own way in life - very enjoyable . . . It’s a real page-turner’ Yours
‘Brilliant, a real tissue box tale, heartrending’
Daily Echo, Bournemouth
‘A beautifully woven tale of tangled lives . . . An author able to balance emotions, especially love, with skill and wise involvement’ Coventry Evening Telegraph
‘One to make you laugh and cry’ Our Time, Cambridge
‘Her stories are now eagerly awaited by readers the length and breadth of the country’ Heartland Evening News
‘A promising and well-drawn debut’ Lancashire Evening Post
‘A story of adversity and survival’ Huddersfield Daily Examiner
I dedicate this book to my friend, Ronnie Schwartz, the ‘real’ Soho Gus, and also to Betty, with gratitude for your never-ending faith in me with all my love xx
Acknowledgements
Special thanks to Flora, Poppy, Helena, Jane, Joan and the wonderful team at Headline. When Flora, my editor first commissioned me to write this book I was very apprehensive about it, but once I began I loved writing it and hope my readers will love it too.
Also thanks to Philip Patterson, my agent, and Kate and the Babes for all their love and support.
During the research for this novel I was privileged to speak to many people who had lived and fought through the Second World War. Their bravery and courage made me feel very humble, and I would like to pay tribute to them and also to the people who died fighting for our country.
Part One
Prologue
Coventry, September 1939
‘Do you think there really will be a war?’ Maggie Bright asked as she cradled Lucy, her nine-month-old baby daughter, to her chest.
Her husband, Sam, glanced at her scornfully across the top of his newspaper.
‘Don’t see how it can be avoided now, accordin’ to Chamberlain. They’ve startin’ evacuatin’ the kids already. Happen we should think o’ getting them pair upstairs away.’ When he thumbed towards the stairs door, Maggie visibly paled.
‘No, we can’t. Not with them both covered in chickenpox.’ Her voice betrayed her deep fear.
He snorted derisively. ‘If they didn’t have chickenpox you’d come up wi’ some other excuse to keep ’em with yer. If we’d lived in London you wouldn’t have had a choice. They’ll turn into a right pair o’ cissies, the way you mammy pamper ’em. To hear you goin’ on, anyone would think they were still babies instead of eight year olds.’
Maggie swallowed the hasty denial that sprang to her lips and lowered the baby, who was now fast asleep, into the wooden crib at the side of the fireplace.
It was a relief when, minutes later, Sam rose from his seat and snatched his jacket and flat cap from the back of the door. ‘I’m off to the pub fer a few bevvies. Don’t wait up fer me,’ he told her shortly.
Maggie nodded, and once the door had closed behind him, she sank down at the kitchen table and buried her face in her hands. What would she do if there was a war and she had to send her twins away? She knew that she would get to keep Lucy with her, for it seemed that they were only evacuating children of school age as yet. But how would Lizzie and Danny cope with being away from her - or worse still, away from each other? The fact that they were twins and as close as could be was no guarantee that they would be placed together. Only that very morning she’d heard Mrs Marshall from Bird Street telling someone in the butcher’s shop how her three children had all been placed in separate houses somewhere in the Lake District. Oh, admittedly, it sounded like the children were having a whale of a time, but she doubted Lizzie and Danny would if they were apart.
She thought of them lying upstairs
, probably tucked into the same bed. In looks, they were like two peas in a pod, with their fair hair and deep blue eyes, and yet in every other way they were as different as chalk from cheese. Lizzie tended to be timid and shy, whereas Danny, the older by eight minutes, was extrovert and full of mischief. Even so, there was some unseen bond between them that sometimes shocked their mother to her very roots. They were so close that sometimes Danny would finish Lizzie’s sentence for her - and woe betide anyone who so much as looked at her the wrong way. Maggie had lost count of the number of times she’d been called to the school to sort out his skirmishes, and yet she could never be angry with him for long. In fact, she found the way he stood up for his sister strangely touching. Her frown deepened. The thought of being separated from them hardly bore thinking about, for her children were her whole world.
Clasping her hands together, she prayed for peace.
Chapter One
‘Why is Mam crying?’ Lizzie whispered as she leaned against Danny.
‘Sshh,’ Danny whispered back.
They were crouched at the top of the narrow staircase, and downstairs in the kitchen they could faintly hear the wireless and their mother’s sobs.
‘Seems like that bloke on the nine o’clock news has just declared we’re at war,’ Danny told her solemnly.
‘But what does that mean? An’ why is Mam cryin’ about it?’
Danny shrugged his slight shoulders. ‘Don’t really know. I do know though that war is a bad thing, so perhaps that’s why she’s cryin’.’
‘What do you mean, a bad thing?’
‘Well . . .’ Her brother struggled to explain his concept of war. ‘I reckon the Germans drop bombs an’ shoot people an’ that.’
Lizzie paled as her eyes almost started from her head, but the debate was stopped from going any further when they heard the sound of a chair being scraped away from the table. Grasping his sister’s hand, Danny hauled her past their parents’ bedroom to the privacy of the room they shared. It was a small room, with just enough space for two single beds, a single wardrobe and a chest of drawers, but Maggie had brightened it with cheap pictures and posters on the walls. Now, as their father’s heavy tread sounded on the stairs, the twins leaped into their narrow beds and pulled the blankets up to their chins. They should have been asleep a couple of hours ago; their dad would go mad if he found them still awake and, worse still, out of bed!
They waited until they had heard their parents’ bedroom door open and shut, then Danny crept across the linoleum-covered floor and slipped in at the side of Lizzie. Shivering, she snuggled into the safety of his arms. She was frightened without really knowing why, but Danny would make everything all right; he always did.
Downstairs, their mother was pottering about as she made up the fire and locked the doors, then seconds later, their bedroom door creaked open and she peeped in. She grinned when she saw them tucked in together.
‘I don’t know why I bothered buying you a bed each,’ she scolded, but her eyes were twinkling.
Instantly, Lizzie felt brighter. Their mam was lovely - kind and gentle, and pretty too, with her fair hair and blue eyes. Grandma Sharp, who lived just across the road from them in Clay Lane, had always told Lizzie that their mam had looked just like Lizzie did now when she was a little girl, but Lizzie had always found that hard to imagine, until Grandma had shown her some photographs of her mother as a child. Then Lizzie could see that they did look remarkably alike. It was strange to imagine that her mam had ever been a little girl, though. After all, she was their mam - and the best mam in the whole wide world, as far as Lizzie Bright was concerned.
When Maggie went over to tuck the blankets more tightly around them, Lizzie whispered, ‘Why’ve you been crying, Mam?’
Maggie struggled to find the right words to answer. Eventually she told her, ‘I heard something sad on the wireless.’ There was no point in lying to them; they would find out about it at school.
‘What did you hear?’ It was Danny’s turn to ask questions now.
Taking a deep breath, Maggie replied, ‘I heard that England is now at war.’
‘But why?’
Smoothing an imaginary crease from the candlewick bedspread, Maggie straightened and hurried towards the chink of light that was peeping through a small gap in the curtains. Closing them, she sighed, ‘Because people can’t always live together without fighting.’
‘Like you an’ Dad, you mean?’ Danny said innocently.
Maggie bent swiftly to peck them both on their cheeks. ‘Me and your dad don’t fight,’ she said, none too convincingly, then she turned and made for the door so that they wouldn’t see the fresh tears that were ready to fall at any second. Feeling their frightened eyes boring into her back, she turned just once more to smile at them reassuringly. ‘Don’t you two get worrying now. It will probably all be over in no time. We’ll be just fine, you’ll see. Now go off to sleep else you’ll never get better.’
Her heart swelled with love as she looked at them. They were both covered in Calamine lotion from head to foot to stop them itching, and looked like two little ghosts. They stared back at her, and once the door had closed behind her they snuggled further down into the bed.
Lizzie was trembling and Danny held her protectively against him.
‘Don’t worry,’ his soft voice sliced through the darkness. ‘If Mam says it’ll be all right, then it will be.’
Comforted, Lizzie yawned and closed her eyes. Soon, their gentle snores echoed around the room.
‘Vera Hodges’ son joined up today,’ Maggie remarked as she slid a slice of bacon onto a sturdy white dinner-plate.
Sam glanced up briefly from the newspaper he was reading. ‘Him an’ a few dozen more, from what the blokes at work were sayin’ today,’ he grunted.
Danny and Lizzie, who were sitting at the opposite side of the table to their father, exchanged a worried glance. Since the beginning of the war, lots of people they knew had gone away to fight, and it disturbed them. They sat silent until at last their mam had finished putting out the dinner and joined them at the table.
After folding his newspaper and lifting his knife and fork, their father grimaced. ‘Call this a dinner?’ He glared at Maggie. ‘One bloody strip o’ bacon an’ one sausage? How’s a workin’ man supposed to keep his strength up on this - an’ where’s me fried egg, eh?’
Hastily, Maggie slid her sausage onto his plate. ‘Sorry, Sam. It’s all this talk about rationin’. I’m doin’ the best I can. Everybody seems to be panicking and grabbing everything they can. I had to queue up at the butcher’s for over an hour just to get this. As for eggs - well, at the minute they’re harder to get hold of than snow in summertime.’
‘Huh!’ Grunting his disapproval, Sam began to shovel the food into his mouth at an alarming rate. It was at that moment that Lucy woke up and began to cry.
Maggie hurried over to the crib at the side of the fireplace and lifted her out.
‘You have my dinner an’ all,’ she told her husband. ‘This one needs feedin’, an’ by the time I’m done it’ll be stone cold anyway.’
Without so much as a word, Sam scraped her dinner onto his plate. Maggie crossed to the walk-in pantry at the side of the room and removed a glass feeding bottle full of milk formula that she had prepared earlier.
Settling into the fireside chair, she began to feed the baby, who gulped at the milk greedily. The twins grinned at each other. They still hadn’t got over the novelty of having a baby sister, and treated her like a little doll. Lucy was dark like her father, with chocolate-brown eyes that melted the heart of anyone who saw her. Their grins vanished, however, as they saw their mother’s meal disappearing into their father’s mouth, and without a word being uttered they both knew exactly what the other was thinking. Their mother was losing weight and had dark circles beneath her eyes that told of the sleepless nights she was having. Lucy was teething, and often they would get up in the mornings to find their mother pacing the floor of the
small kitchen-cum-sitting room with the baby in her arms.
Their father rose from the table, snapped his braces off his broad arms and swiped a lock of dark hair from his forehead.
‘Going out, are you, Sam?’ their mother asked timidly.
He snorted. ‘O’ course I am. It’s Friday night, ain’t it? A bloke’s entitled to a few bevvies down at the pub wi’ his mates after a hard week’s graft, ain’t he?’
‘Yes, yes, of course he is,’ Maggie hastened to agree with him. ‘Just let me settle Lucy back down an’ I’ll fetch the bath in and fill it for you.’
‘Huh, it’ll be quicker to fetch it in meself. That little madam’s rulin’ the roost, from what I can see of it. I don’t know why yer don’t just put her down an’ let her howl. She’d soon learn to belt up if yer didn’t pander to her.’
‘She can’t help it, Sam,’ Maggie pointed out. ‘The poor little mite’s in pain with her teeth, that’s why she’s cryin’ all the time.’
Impatiently, he strode across the room and flung open the back door that led onto the shared yard. Seconds later, he returned with a tin bath that had been hanging on a nail outside.